I'm Not Giving In

There's been so many times when I just want to give up on getting a job but I know I can't. I want to say "I am never going to apply for a job ever again" and mean it, but if I do I've lost the battle.

I applied to Jam Staffing, had a phone interview then a group interview and was hopeful. BUT THEN I GOT THE EMAIL: sorry your application will not be taken any further. Rejected from a hospitality agency. What has the world come to?!

I wasn't very organised, it's true. I didn't have proof of my new address, but I did have the photocopy of my passport and everything else I had to bring. I was gonna go back home to get them but decided to forget it in case I was late. After all, it was a long journey to the other side of London. It took an hour and a half just to get there! Waste of my life. They were asking for a lot considering it was just an interview. It didn't even include training or an assessment!

The sad thing is I was really excited. I've never done waitressing or bar work so it was gonna be a whole new experience for me. It ties in with event management as well, which I study. I researched the company thoroughly.

Even worse than Jam Staffing was my interview was Savse (a healthy drinks brand). The interviewer probably knew exactly who he wanted to hire from the moment he saw us. There were only three of us (all female, different ethnicities and ages. A good mix) so I thought it would be a small group interview with a few open questions, but instead I was asked one question then told to get lost. No lie, we were all asked why we should be chosen then he made the decision to put the other girls through but not me. 

I'm not gonna lie, I felt bad at that moment. It was so sudden. I didn't understand what I had said or done wrong. Had I even said enough to be penalised? Everyone seemed surprised, probably because I wasn't even given a chance. I got no feedback or follow up email, just a handshake I ignored (smartly act like you don't notice and brush past them with a fake smile on your face, that's how I do it lol). That interview completely ruined my day.

Rejection after rejection makes you question yourself. What am I doing wrong? Should I be applying for jobs in a different industry? Am I ever gonna get a good job? What is it about me that employers don't like? Even scarier, am I on the right career path or will I hit a dead end? I don't want to waste my life working towards a goal that will never happen.

For the first time I was seriously losing faith.

However, recently I was accepted by Esprit events, which is a hospitality company. I am so happy! I can finally try waitressing and bar work. It's a zero hours contract, but I have faith I will get work. It may not be as much work as I want, but anything is better than nothing. Ooh I'll get to work at cool events!

I try not to dwell on things and take each day as it comes but life is hard. So (raising my imaginary glass) here's to happiness and security for us all.

Shanice x