Standing In The Shadow

Hello,

I really don't blog much, it's terrible, but this is my personal diary. I post something when I'm hyped or I need to get something off my chest. It really helps to write.

So where am I at right now? I'm frustrated, which is being expressed as tears. Every emotion turns to tears for me, it's pretty annoying. I nearly collapsed and I wasn't even given a glass of water.

I used to be an attention seeker when I was younger, I guess I haven't changed that much. I always seeked acknowledgement of my parent's love, now I just hate being pushed aside. I don't like having people rally around me, but I hate feeling like I don't matter as much as someone else.

It hurts when you feel constantly ignored because someone else is going through something. Made to feel like you're in the wrong when there's a reason you reacted the way you did. Maybe you overreact sometimes but that isn't a reason for them to come down so hard on you. They're ruder than before, but God forbid you're still the only one in the wrong.

I will get back to blogging happy things soon, my blog should be a sweet escape.

Shanice x