Opportunities and Realisations

Hello :)

So again I have waited ages to write a new post. I can give you all of the excuses under the sun but I am not going to, I am going to simply apologize. Sorry for my spaced out posts! I am so thankful for those of you who take the effort to read my blog.

So let me get to the point of this post: opportunities and realisations. Why have I been so stressed lately? The quick answer, I'm scared of missing out. When an opportunity comes my way I grab it because I don't know what's going to come of it. Imagine if great things happen, my life could change forever for the better! I could be one step closer to having a mansion and a private jet! However, nothing dramatically great has happened, yet.

I took on way more than I could handle at once. First, I went back to my old college to help out with the fashion show for a third year running. I hired and managed the models and makeup artists. Of course I put myself in it too and modeled a few of the pieces. It doesn't sound like too much, but juggling that with university and work was crazy. I am a student ambassador at university and I am on a few different agencies; during this Christmas period there is loads of work available. I like to splash the cash and I have bills to pay so there's no way around it, I have to work. I do enjoy working though, well sometimes. I love my job as a student ambassador and some of my other work is pretty cool. I have had some great experiences, especially as an Extra.


(Above pic: makeup selfie. Below pic: me on the catwalk. Someone in the audience made me laugh)

I didn't have too many deadlines at university but procrastination led to me rushing around feeling stressed. I underestimated how quickly I could get the work done and overestimated my multi-tasking abilities. It pains me to say it, but sadly I am not Superwoman. I started to feel exhausted and needed some time to myself. Rest became a priority, luckily I still tried to sleep well. Since then I have started taking it easy and I've come back to my blog. 


University has finished for the term and now I have a month off! As you've probably gathered, I like to make the most out of life, so this will not be a month of doing nothing. I'm going to Las Vegas baby! 3 nights only which is a shame but it's going to be an amazing three nights. You never know, I might just return to London married (kidding!). On the 20th December I'll be in America for the first time! That's definitely the most exciting thing I'm going to do in 2016. I'm also going to work a little, finish my essays way ahead of the deadlines and sleep. Sounds like a beautiful month off!

So something unusual happened a few months ago. I had a hypnotherapy session over Skype. Skype! That's not how I would expect a personal session, but who am I to complain? I literally had the session in my pyjamas. The hypnotherapist spoke to me and guided me through the journey of my life, conjuring up my own future projections and digging up my past. It was a very interesting session. We concluded that I need to be willing to let guys in and work on my trust issues. I push guys away before they get too close. That's not the way to land a husband. I had a certain image of my future which wasn't what I wanted so I am going to allow myself to open up.

When an opportunity comes your way, think carefully whether it's right for you. Not everything should be a Yes, like not everything should be a No but you need to make sure you don't overdo it like I did. University is my top priority yet I found myself questioning whether I should go to my lectures or stay in bed and sleep. I know me and I know I'll overwork myself again, but I'm going to try to be sensible and take it easy. Two things at a time only.

Here's a little something just because it's Christmas. My favourite Christmas cover ever, Christina Aguilera and Brian McKnight singing Have Yourself A Merry Christmas:


TTFN
Shanice x

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